I wanted to end NIAW with a post about our infertility because, as I look to my left and smile, and look to my right and smile, for two reasons I was beginning to think we would never have. I want people to know, who may be suffering alone and in silence, that you are NOT alone and that there is hope!
I briefly touched about our journey to parenthood in my very first post but I will recap a bit.
After only a few months of TTC (trying to conceive) I just had this gut feeling that something was wrong. We went to a RE (reproductive endocrinologist) in San Antonio and that's when we were diagnosed with infertility and told we'd have less than a 5% chance of ever conceiving naturally. I still remember that phone call like it was yesterday. it shattered my world. I cried SO hard-just bawling and screaming as loud as I could, all the while punching my couch with every ounce of energy I had left. There were women out there getting abortions because they were too lazy to use birth control or a condom, just throwing a precious life out the window because they were careless, yet here Paul and I wers, wanting to start a family more than anything, and we were just told we would have to spend $10,000+ at just a CHANCE of having that dream come true. I have never experienced a more "life is not fair" moment that after I received that phone call.
In all honesty though, we are lucky!! Although we dont have it easy as most couples do, in the infertility world, we had it easy. Yeah-months of pills, injections, 6 hour round trip doctor appointments every other day, thousands and thousands of dollars spent-and we're the lucky ones because after just one full round, those two embryos that we transferred are giggling and laughing right now and playing with their feet and going crazy in the jumperoo! So while I could sit here and feel sorry for us, I dont, because there are people out there that have been struggling for YEARS and spent tens of thousands of dollars and still have empty arms.
To anyone who may be suffering from infertility, whether newly diagnosed or not, please know that you are NOT alone. People ask me why I am so open with my story and it's because if I can reach out and help just one other couple, my vulnerability will all be worth it! There are SO many options with our amazing world that we live in, as far as medically technology goes. Please do not suffer in silence, and dont ever give up. There is always hope!
-Lots of love and baby dust to you-
I love this post! Jeff and I conceived so easily and I know I take it for granted. I am so happy you guys were able to get pregnant with today's technology! Your twins are beautiful!
ReplyDeleteI didn't have to do IVF, but I do remember how long I tried to get pregnant before it finally happened. Like you, I wanted a baby so badly, and it hurt to know that their were people out there getting pregnant and aborting, or having a baby and then not really taking very good care of it.
ReplyDeleteI remember when your mom told me about the problems you were having, and I cried for you because I knew what great parents you and Paul would be! Modern medicine is wonderful and your two little miracles are proof that with the help of science and an abundance of prayer, it can happen!
And now I get to see the proof of what great parents you both are! Love you all and so proud of you!